So in preparing for my cho dan test, it has become clear to me that I'm just not where I need to be. I'm comfortable that I know my material. It's really more of the execution of techniques that I'm worried about. I don't feel like I move or react like a black belt candidate should.

In addition to my fear that I'm not ready for the test, I'm totally clueless about what I will write for my black belt paper. I've taken a few stabs at it. But, I'm rapidly moving into a full-blown procrastination mode. Lefty is quite a bit farther along than me, which only makes me more worried about what I'm not able to put fown on paper myself.

So with less than two weeks to go, my fear of failure is mounting.